Happy New Year! (Although it’s not the new year until Spring. More about that in April.) I too have been working towards a life I no longer want.
Did you spend the majority of 2022 working on a career that you’re no longer interested in? Did you pour into your Youtube channel or your clothing brand? Were you saving for your business or a new apartment?
Now you have absolutely no interest in it. So did I. I shed tears over things I wanted so deeply the past six months, only to be uninterested and unmoved by them.
This too is natural. Especially when our desires and goals are shaped so heavily by media. One month you’re grinding to get expensive cars and designer clothes, and the next you question why you ever wanted those things.
I’ll keep it short. We don’t have long before our true or new desires catch up with us. We don’t have long before our body realizes you pledged it to 60 hour work weeks to afford an expensive apartment that your spirit is not moved by. You can’t fool yourself forever. And why would you want to?
Why enslave your being? Why pledge it’s allegiance to something it was not designed for?
Misery sets in when what’s in our head does not match what lives outside of it. It’s just a conflict of interest: why am I doing this when I don’t care for the outcome? Why am I working towards a life I no longer want?
However, your efforts were not in vain. Well, it depends actually. If you accumulated no other thing than money by way of a miserable melody, then yes, you’ve wasted a time rejecting the purity of reception and learning, to gain money. But! If you’ve gained skill and perspective you have not! Your eyes must be open, you must be vigilant. You are not to be mechanical.
Reroute! Set new goals and make the adjustments to enjoy them! There is no shame in redirection. We are adaptive beings. Make a plan to go back to school- or change your major, or quit school altogether. Refinance your car so you can work less. Pick up a new skill. You must be the catalyst, though! No one can walk, breathe, or be happy for you.
If we’ve learned nothing thus far, it’s that if nothing changes, nothing changes! You don’t want to wake up 6 months from now still singing, I’m working towards a life I no longer want.
Do you truly desire fame and fortune? Do you truly desire children? Did God put you up to this? Or did TikTok? Hm.
2 thoughts on “I’m Working Towards A Life I No Longer Want”
The relevancy of this message is so timely! Society has placed a deep fear of “what if” in our minds. What if I don’t have money? What’s will people think? What if I don’t finish my degree? What will my family think? What if I’m not successful at my job? Am I failure? All these things and more drive us to “work toward a life we no longer want.” I’m convinced that at this point, it is so deeply embedded in minds that this “life” is all people want; regardless if they’re miserable.
Hey <3 i agree, I fell into the trap and realized what i wanted deep down had nothing to do with what i was working towards. overconsumption, people pleasing, anxiousness create robots